Carpal Tunnel

I may or may have not created certain complications. Either way they're killing me inside, and for the first time in my life I truly do not know what to do.

Fuck

A candle should burn red.

A guy at a concert of an all girl band should suddenly go up on stage cup the lead guitarist's breast and kiss her. The girl should return the kiss.

Film people's desires.

Bring life to the mind.

Real to art introductions.

Behind Blue Eyes and Cuckoo for Incarceration Film.

The Poet.

Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World.

Bring life to the conversations.

The girl in the front aisle.

Mother hitting child and teens making fun of it with each other.

Do you really love me? Because if you don't, I will cheat on you.

Wife beaters, they flirt.

Feather bird with something like the sweet old lady from the Majestic.

You will never find who you are.

You're a rattlesnake.

Street lights that speak and pull pranks on drivers.

Are you two aware that you look beautiful together?

Life is everything.

Picture Film.

Lady from International Ki Institute.

My mind is open to a lot of closed-minded things.

I like things that don't last.

Crazy lady.

Serial killer.

Nice lady and the Mexican.

I poke my eyes with picks. My cornea! My cornea!

Other Me: "What's wrong with you?"Me: "There's nothing wrong with me. It's just what you see wrong with me that makes you ask me that."

The driver of the crying van.

"I can't believe I got a fucking shirt for Christmas. Mom! Grandma's gone senile. It's time to stick her into a nursing home."

Walking Home and Meeting the Almost Da Vinci Little Girl

I am known within my cirlce of friends to say a rather insulting compliment. An oxymoron you say? Well the compliment is "You're fat!" Some people think that I mean P-H-A-T. But I DO not mean the word fat. But I do not mean it for it's denotation. Fat is simply fat. It's not the synonym of overweight, obeist, or huge. It is simply a three letter word spelled F-A-T. It is my complement to those who I care about or I am comfortable with.

One day while walking home from my job at Burger King, a young girl turned a corner of an alley with her father. The girl wore a white dress, typical clothing that expressed the innocence within childrens' hearts. I watched her walk on and smiled as I was reminded of my baby sister, who resembled the girl because of the clothing. Suddenly, the girl turned around and walked towards me and gave me a piece of paper. She pointed to the crayon drawing and said "My brother drew this but I wrote that on top." She pointed to the writing. She smiled and left me there dumbfounded on the sidewalk. She walked on along with her father who was entirely oblivious to this short and screwy event.

I finally got the courage to walk again and looked at the piece of paper. It was a drawing of a car (obviously done by a kid) and on the bottom and upside-down was written "uoY Are Fet."

I stopped, shocked. Smiled. Then walked on home.

Hysteria Siberiana

"Day after day you watch the sun rise in the east, pass across the sky, then sink in the west, and something breaks inside you and dies. You throw your plough aside and, your head completely empty of thought, you begin walking toward the west. Heading toward a land that lies west of the sun. Like someone possessed, you walk on, day after day, not eating or drinking, until you collapse on the ground and die. That's hysteria siberiana."

-South of the Border, West of the Sun
by Haruki Murakami

Symbolism in Gothic, Renaissance, and Baroque Art

TIME (life is fleeting)

• Hourglass
• Clock

EVIL

• Owl
• Whale
• Serpent
• Blackbird
• Apple
• Leopard

HOLY SPIRIT

• Dove
• Clover

VIRGIN MARY (chastity)

• Chestnut
• Lily
• Iris

LOVE

• Pink Carnation

ETERNITY

• Star
• Sun
• Moon

DEATH AND IMMORTALITY

• Ivy
• White Flag

HUMILITY

• Ox
• Ass

DILIGENCE

• Bee
• Stork

LAZINESS AND LUST

• Cat
• Horse
• Pig

VIGILANCE AND WATCHFULNESS

• Cock
• Crane
• Goose

COURAGE

• Lion

PURITY AND PEACE

• Dove
• Olive Branch

HOPE AND RESURRECTION

• Eagle
• Egg
• Butterfly
• Phoenix
• Palm Branch

NUMBERS

• One: Unity, Origin
• Two: Christ as God and Man
• Three: Trinity, Birth, Life, Death
• Four: Four Evangelists, Four Elements (Earth, Fire, Wind, Water)
• Seven: Seven Days and Nights, Seven Deadly Sins
• Ten: Ten Commandments
• Twelve: Twelve Apostles

SAINTS

• Matthew: Winged Angel
• Mark: Winged Lion
• Luke: Winged Ox
• John: Winged Eagle
• Catherine: Wheel
• Barbara: Tower

COLORS

• Blue: Heaven, Virgin
• Purple: Royalty
• Green: Life over death, "Green with envy"
• Red: Love and Hate
• White: Purity and Innocence
• Yellow: Heaven, Sun, Jealousy, Treason

FIGURES

• Triangle: Trinity
• Circle: Eternity
• Square: The Earth
• Pentagram: Protection against sorcery

Sonnets and Thoughts on William Shakespeare's Shall I Compare Thee to a Summer's Day

Sonnets
Latin = sound

A sonnet is a fixed poem.
Sonnets were created in 13th century Italy.
The English kind, that Shakespeare wrote, are in iambic pentameter. (What is that?)

3 quatrains (sets of 4 lines each) followed by a rhyming couplet.
The rhyming scheme is:

Ist quatrain with example rhymes.
a (day)
b (temperate)
a (May)
b (date)

2nd quatrain with example rhymes.
c (shines)
d (dimmed)
c (declines)
d (untrimmed)

3rd quatrain with example rhymes.
e (fades)
f (ow'st)
e (shades)
f (grow'st)

Concluding couplet with example rhymes.
g (see)
g (thee)

Iambic Pentameter = Five Foot Line
Iambic = foot (Greek)
Penta = five
meter = line

Rules:

• Each line has 10 syllables (any number of words but 10 syllables).
• Those syllables can be broken down into 5 groups of 2 syllables (iambs).
  

da--------Dum----da--------Dum----da-------Dum---- da-------Dum-----da-------Dum
Shall-----I---------com------pare----thee-----to-------a--------sum------mer's----day?
1-------------------2-------------------3----------------- 4-------------------5-------------

April 29, 2003

Why?

Someone would want to compare someone they love with a Summer's day because that loved one has all the characteristics of Summer's day. First of all, that person is HOT! Dude, obviously! The rest: because Summer is the time for relaxation, it's very bright and brings out the best from anybody. Summer means no school ( Idon't know how that can relate to a person). Everything in nature is just perfect just like the loved one. You can enjoy being outside w/ someone just like summer. All the flowers are pretty especially the pink and green ones. The grass is nice. If there's no heat wave then the mild heat combined with the gentle breeze can lift someone off their feet and make that person feel so much better. It's time for ice cream which is sweet and cool. It's playing -blah blah- there's basketball. The sky is blue and the clouds are soft like cotton. The sun welcomes you and gives you life.

My Personal Investigation of The Da Vinci Code and It's Parallelism with My Self-Portrait

The Da Vinci Code
by Dan Brown

Dan Brown's Fact:
The Priory of Sion - a European secret society founded in 1099 - is a real organization. In 1975 Paris's Bibliotheque Nationale discovered parchments known as Les Dossiers Secrets, identifying numerous members of the Priory of Sion, including Sir Isaac Newton, Botticelli, Victor Hugo, and Leonardo Da Vinci.

The Vatican prelature known as Opus Dei is a deeply devout Catholic sect that has been the topic of recent controversy due to reports of brain washing, coercion, and a dangerous practice known as "corporal mortification." Opus Dei has just completed construction of a $47 million National Headquarters at 243 Lexington Avenue in New York City.

All descriptions of artwork, architecture, documents, and secret rituals in this novel are accurate.

Artwork Described in the Novel

• Mona Lisa
• Maddona of the Rocks
• Vitruvian Man
• Sketches of Da Vinci
• The Last Supper

Notes

• Rosslyn Chapel
• St. James Park
• Sangreal
• King's College
• Pentacle
• Divine Proportion
• Fibonacci Sequence
• Priory of Sion
• Opus Dei
• Sacred Feminine
• Andre Venet
• John Pike and the Federation of American Scientists
• Louvre Museum
• French Ministry of Culture
• Project Gutenberg
• Bibliotheque Nationale
• Gnostic Society Library
• Department of Paintings Study and Documentation at The Louvre
• Catholic World News
• Royal Observatory
• Greenwich
• London Keard Society
• Muniment Collection at Westminster Abbey

Self-Portrait
by Paolo Ysmael Tenorio Salazar

My Fact:
My self portrait was completed before I ever heard of and, possibly, before The Da Vinci Code was published. When the novel's plot unraveled, I immediately realized surprising and somewhat disturbing parallels between Dan Brown's novel and my self-portrait.

It is true that at the time I created my self-portrait, I was inspired by Leonardo Da Vinci.

Novel's Parallelism with My Self-Portrait

THE DA VINCI CODE vs. MY SELF PORTRAIT

• P.S., Priory of Sion, Princess Sophie? vs. Paolo Salazar
• Rose (5 Petal) vs. P
• Rosemary vs. 1
• Spades, Female? symbol vs. My spades used as arrows
• Sacred Feminne vs. Girls
• Vitruvian Man and Pentacle vs. My body
• Mirror Image Writing vs. My mirror image writing
• PHI vs. My ratio close to PHI
• Sun (Pagan) vs. Sun in torso
• Hexagon vs. Jewel which symbolizes females in my life
• Masks vs. My face is masked

Numbers

• 2500000000
• 1545117429
• 5000000000
• 5000000000
• 3000000000
• 3090234858
• 5 (Pentacle) / 3.090234858